My First year degree

As time waits for no one, my first year degree program comes to a close. In about one and a half month time, my final exams will be commencing soon. Mid-term examinations are over and I'm reaching the climax of the semester. I'll be facing four final exam papers which are Engineering Chemistry, Electrical Systems, Engineering Mathematics, and Engineering Programming. The grade aim for this semester is two distinctions and three credits. Distinctions for Engineering Chemistry and Design and Processes which is an assignment unit with no final exam paper.

In last semester's basketball tournament, my team reached the quarter finals. This semester's basketball tournament has already begun. My team "Freshmen" included four new members and removed four members. Our team is in group B and only the best two in the groups will be eligible to enter the semi-finals. Our first game was on last Sunday against "Miracle". Freshmen lost with the score 74-40. We had our largest lead in the beginning of the game which was 8-0. Later on in the game there was a quarrel between some of the Freshmen players with the referee and struggled in the last two quarters of the game. Miracle should be one of the best team in this tournament because almost all the players are Curtin players. Next game maybe scheduled to be on this coming Sunday. For us to qualify for the semi-finals we must win all next four games. Its exciting to feel to be a part of something and to work something out of it. Team Effort! thats what we'll need to win the next four games.

Have you ever thought of a super ability that you would want to have if you are capable of having one? I would like to be the fastest being on earth ever lived. With my incredible speed I would have my every action to be like 60 miles/hour. Gone in 60 seconds, something like that. It would be so fun going as fast as you can and SAVE time. Yes, being fast is an advantage of being human. Completing your work in time, having a capability to work quickly. I'm just saying but how good it will be if it is possible having super powers in the future. We can dream don't we. Thats where our imagination comes from and to be put into reality. In the past, flying to the moon or cloning may seem impossible but it certainly is possible now. What may seem impossible may be possible in the future. Who knows to what extent are humans potential of creating in the future. If you like to share, please give a comment of what super ability would you like to have and why so. I'm just interested to know the different creative ideas people have. Cool.

The fastest man alive "The Flash"

Another thing I'm into recently is Curtin's first sports carnival organized by the Student Council. There are few events which includes relay-running, volleyball, basketball, futsal, dodgeball, tug of war. Last week was volleyball and relay-running. This weekend will be futsal and basketball. Last week I participated in relay running. It was really tiring, I can't remember when was the last time I felt so tired. Just kept pushing myself to run till I can't feel my legs at the finish line. All I know is that we weren't the last team to finished. Haha. This weekend I'll be participating in the basketball event. Each team consist of three guys and two gals, only to be fair. Can't wait to see how it goes. Sure to be fun.

A new chapter

I like to think of a new year as a new chapter of my life. After a chapter has ended, we can't wait to turn to the next chapter and find out what's next. Perhaps not everybody thinks this way but I do. This chapter is going to be a great one. Think of it as a new collection of memories to be kept till you get old. Once we reached a level where most things in our lives doesn't really matter anymore we can turn back those memories and tell them to your grandchildren.

Yesterday I stumbled across an old friend, Ignatius Lau aka Iggy here in Miri. He was a friend from Kindergarden and was in the same primary school. I was an ex-lodgian and I moved to St Joseph in primary six. Surprisingly he moved to St Joseph in secondary school and was a classmate of mine in form 5. We were even in the same national service camp and now Curtin.

During the holidays I had a chance to watch Rocky balboa on DVD. Its probably the last of the Rocky series. Never thought a boxing movie would be so meaningful and inspiring. A must watch movie. There are many parts in the movie which was significant but my most favorite scene was the one where Rocky was having a conversation with his son. He told his son that the world isn't all peaceful and that life was going to be hard but we should struggle and keep moving forward no matter how hard life is going to be. Be willing to take the hits and not pointing fingers and complaining, be tough.

Time to focus on my goals. It ain't over till its over. Check this one out for yourself. It's worth watching.

Oh yea, and one more thing is that Simple Plan's new album is out! Thanks again Keith for the album. This album rocks and simple plan fans should go get them. Simple plan has released great albums so far and its never a regret to buy and listen to their songs. Just awesome.

Home Soon

Hey ya, to all my friends that miss me so much...haha...I'll be back soon and I really miss u guys!. Just a couple more days and I'll be flying back to Kuching. Not so sure of the date though but I'll surely be back before December. This month is going to be the month where finals are closing up for most of us. Study week is next week for students in Curtin and Final exams on the week after. Wish us all good luck and all the best for our Final exams this semester. I wonder whats Kuching like now and how are u guys been doing there. I guess this is how a person feels after leaving something that has been with them for most of their lives for quite some time and going back without knowing what had happen between those gaps apart. Anyway its not a waste either, I was able to experience new things when I'm away from home and I wonder if everything has changed. Sometimes we are afraid that things are going to change from the way they used to be but if it changes for the better why not. But to tell the truth, I'm very afraid things might have changed a lot till I won't recognize anything at all. For example, I would not have recognize Avery anymore without his spectacles. If I see him I'll blow him off cause I'd mistaken him for someone else. The consequences is he'll say " Wahlau joe, so how lian aah u...see me oso tidak mau layan..cis!...WACA!...kick your buttocks baru you know"...haha just kidding. Thats just a lame example. So, u guys don't be like that when I go back aaa...I just like "katak dibawah tempurung". Guess tats all I want to say. U guys take care. See ya very soon.

What matters most

Mid terms are over and so is my basketball tournament. Our team lost in the quarter finals against the best team in Curtin. It was a good experience though, going against the best team in school on our last match in the quarter finals. Actually we played not bad really, our team which was just formed against a team that has been playing together for quite some time, I'll say we did fine and I'm quite happy about that. I also learned that it doesn't really matters who scored the most or who is the leader of the team, all we got to do is trust in each other, play our part, don't give up, and stick together as one. The only thing we got to do less is repeating our mistakes. I mean who doesn't make mistakes right but it's wrong to not learn from your mistakes and repeating them. There was a national player which was in the opposing team who dunked during our last game. Wow, simply amazing..its the first time I seen a real person dunk a perfect basket during a game. We finished this tournament with 3 wins and 4 lost. Phew..last week was all study, assignments, and ball games. Finally, I'm able to take a breath for the weekend. Next week is going to be a tuition free week which I plan to do assignments, study, and just have fun. I realized I was not quite right the last time I blog about myself, I'm not alone unless I think I am, I have friends who cares. There are many people in the world who are suffering worst hardships in life and I was wrong to compare myself. What matters most is that we live life everyday to make it as interesting, happy, and memorable as possible despite the fact that there are ups and downs in life. Take it as a challenge and it will help us grow as a human being. I'm happy to say that I have friends who really care about me and I really care about them. I'm gonna live life to the fullest and be a better person everyday, stay POSITIVE. Thank you all for helping me realize that.

Definition of "Jonathan Goh"

Been busy lately. Guess I'm dealing with life. Last week we had 2 ball games, 1 on Friday and another on Sunday. We won both games and we are on a winning streak (3 straight wins). I think our team is heading the right direction. Our team is becoming stronger in teamwork and our spirits are rising up high. As far as I can see, the only thing our team has that brings us this far is our desire and will to win. I believe we gained the respect of seniors and audiences who watch us play on the court. Not only did we had strong teamwork we had strong support from friends who came to watch us play. A very big thank you to them. Mid terms coming in a week, have to study hard.

Teammates & Friends

I'm Jonathan Goh, a 19 year old kid who had a really screwed up childhood. Kept this heartache deep in my heart for a very long time. Life was good in my early days as a kid. Looking back now I was a spoiled brat but i was just a kid. Then, when I was 11, my dad and mum migraded to the states. Me and my little brother was left behind with my Uncle and grandma. Back then, I could not understand much because I was just a spoiled kid. My mum eventually came back after a year because she then decided that she didn't want to leave her kids behind. Since then I've been living my life in two different worlds. One part of my world is living with my grandma and uncle and another part of my world is living with my mum and a so-called stepfather (SCS). Living with my grandma has never been easy, the environment was uncomfortable to live in. She has a bad mouth, gossiping, backstabbing, if I were to mention all her bad attitudes I can't finish mentioning them, she was always right even when she was wrong. It made myself unable to smile and I have been avoiding my grandma because I hated her. Quarrels frequently happened. She hated my mum and she used to criticised my mum in front of me. Besides that, we were disturbed by loan sharks and so on. Thats just half of my life. Living with my mum and my SCS has never been easy either. Me and my brother was kept strictly disciplined by him. From the eating table to how we acted, everything was controlled. Thats why I'm who I am now. We were scolded harshly if we did not stick to his rules. Nobody will know what we've been through those years. Quarrels happened, my mum was beaten, I was slapped, my brother was terrified, we were scared. We have been living in fear for those years. Then I started growing up, when I reached 16, I didn't want to stay with my mum and my SCS anymore. I was tired. I kept so much hate and fear in me that I could not stand it anymore. Unfortunately, life became worst living with my grandma. I became emotional when I was 17, I smashed an aquarium with my hand and my right hand has scars now. This scars will always remind me of what had happened in those years. It was a mistake, I simply could not control myself anymore. That wasn't my first time losing control, there were several times. Now I'm trying my best to change my life from being negative. This is'nt the life I want to live in. Nobody really understands me. I've been alone all this time. How would it be possible for anyone to understand me if not even my parents understands me. This pain I kept so long inside of me must be set free. If not I can't control myself emotionally. Playing basketball was one way for me to get rid of this misery, I loved the game and I felt good. I've always wondered why my dad had abandoned us. It has been 8 years since he left us. Never seen his face till now, not even a picture. My mum's life wasn't easy either. I understand that. As her son, I was willing to share her pain. She commited suicide before. What does this mean? I could have lost her if she was'nt sent to the hospital in time. I had to protect myself. No one could possibly understand the position I am in. I'm different from others, I simply can't describe. Trust me, you'll never want to live in my footsteps. Growing up, I wanted to leave everything behind and start a new life alone. I had my chance now. I'm away from everything in Kuching but somehow things didn't turn out to be what I thought it will be. Fear and pain is haunting me still. I can never run away from my problems. I must face them. I want to start anew, I want to be myself, I want to be a normal kid living a normal life, I want to leave my complicated life behind, I want to have friends to be with, I don't want to feel alone and stray away. I'm trying my best as possible but somehow its hard to change. I've always hope for answers from God but for this long period of time I can't seem to put my faith in him anymore. I've been living in hurt for too long. I'm trying. That's the way it is. I don't expect anyone to understand me, I have to solve this problem alone...